holy macaroni and cheese. today was a drastically up and down day.
its funny how little things can totally change your entire mood.
or big things.
or things that seem big but when you look back in a year will be completely insignificant.

i miss friends. im glad i got to see people today. and it woudlnt be an entry without saying it..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASIA!
you really do turn me onCOUGH my frowns upside down.
and you are one of things can send me into a good mood, so thanks for that and happy birthday again

on a different note, im in a bad mood right now and i ahvent got a clue why. i absolutely hate that. tomorrow im gonna owrk out, which should be interesting since i ahvent lifted in a week, but i have been doing just about every single other physically demanding activity, including chin ups :P
then im going to the planetarium with david. well at elast we are supposed to, we've been trying to go forever now so maybe this tiem it will actually work out

god i feel like such a teenager right now. i dont actually knwo what that means. but tis the only word i can think of to sum up my mood swinging annoyed isolated yet happy yet sad nobody understands me steriotypical mood. dont ask me what that means, it made a lot more sense before i wrote it out.
its kind of like i want somebody to know exactly how i feel without me having to tell them, and them to do exactly the right thing to make life perfect, even though i ahvent got even the slightest diea what that thing might be.
i mean thats not asking too much is it??
wow im such a child

goodnight then
maybe when i wake up ill feel 42
or maybe that ive made at least a dent in the progress of growing up



and it'll happen once again I'll turn to a friend
Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan

But everybody's gone
And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up





goodnight.